Friday, September 11, 2009

Sometimes my morbidity scares me.

What am I dwelling on today? Death. Big surprise there.

Specifically, being left behind. How much pain does a death cause? If you lose a parent, is that more painful than losing a spouse? Is losing a child worse than losing your soulmate? What about if your child is an adult and married to their own soulmate? Whose pain will be greater, yours or your son/daughter-in-law's?

It doesn't really matter I guess. Just trying to put it all into perspective. Maybe if I think of all this in advance it won't catch me by surprise? No, probably won't help at all. But I can't help thinking about it. Especially when it seems so many people are dealing with these variations of pain.

Back to your regularly scheduled cute Nicky photos and stuff later. Promise!


Loralee Choate said...

One thing I have learned is that trying to compare pain is pointless simply because there isn't a firm answer. It will be different for everyone. The only thing that IS certain? It all sucks.

Angela said...

I hear you. I guess my morbid curiosity is if (when) I'm faced with these losses, which ones will I be able to survive? (Meaning: survive as some kind of a functional person, I think I'm past the suicidal tendencies of my youth.)

I don't think like this all the time. But sometimes...